Think Yourself Happy

I just watched a patch of fog on Amazon, it was good, so I won’t tell you how it ends, but it dosn’t end the way to think hehe

Back to the story 🙂

I haven’t had my cock sucked more than 2 or 3 times, so that’s why it took me by suprise 🙂 She sucked it quite a few times after that. whoop whoop hehe

She told me she was only doing girl on girl at that time, but I knew she was lying.

If she told me the truth then maybe I would of behaved differently, but, I don’t like lyers, that’s was why I didn’t feel bad about going to Nepal at the end of my stay in India and sleeping with someone else.

Who, by the way, robbed me of everything 🙂 hahaha

I wrote about that way back at the begining of my blog if you haven’t read it all hehehe

She was in Goa for 2 weeks, but extended it another week and then went home. This was in about Febuary I think, and I stayed in India until the end of April, then she picked me up from Heathrow and we went back to Birmingham where she lived at the time. I stayed with her for about 3 weeks and had lots of sex, she handcuffed me to a chair and sucked my cock and I licked her out etc it was loads of fun, hehe 🙂

Then went back to start the Marqee season 🙂

A couple of months later she invited me to a London train station, I can’t remember which one, where she told me that she had been sleeping with a black man 😦

Broke up with me, and I phoned Sam and took a few days off and went round Sam’s, where he told me that she did the same to him a few years before. haha So I got pissed with Sam for a few days and went back to work. hehehehe win some, you lose some.

I forgot to say that Tosh kicked me out after a year because she was cheating on me with her mate, Miles, he was selling coke so I think she liked the coke more than me hehe

She regretted it later and said she would have stayed with me years later. That was after my stroke and she had moved to Brighton and was walking distance from me, so we had a drink a couple of times.

That’s why I want somebody who won’t cheat on me now 🙂

Although Renee the porn star did cheat on me too, but that’s to be expected really hahahaha

That’s a funny story……..I went round my mate Sam’s flat for his birthday and he was going out with Renee the porn star, something like number 3 in the country I think, but don’t hold me to that hehe

Quite a while later I found out that she fancied me, she had split up with Sam by that time, but I didn’t want anything to do with her because she was a porn star.

So fast forward a year or too and I was in Goa and I can’t even remember how it happened because we didn’t chat or anything since, but I was chatting to her on FB because her grandad had just died, or something like that, and I said, if you need a break then come to Goa for a couple of weeks, she’s a porn star so I new she could do pretty much what ever she liked 🙂

Now, I had no intention of sleeping with her, I just thought it would be good for her get away for 2 weeks. I was there for 6 months, as I always, was due to the marquee seasons etc people would come over a lot for 2 weeks, some I just met randomly on Patnem beach, others by design, so it was nothing new to me to entertain someone for a few weeks 🙂

But before the cab ride from the airport was over, it’s about a 2 hour drive, we were kissing and she ended up staying with me, and within 5 minutes of getting through the front door she was sucking my cock whoop whoop 🙂 🙂 🙂 that took me by surprise hehe

Then she had a shower and we went out to eat. Then walking back along Patnem beach in the dark we decided to have sex on the beach…….not the cocktail, in between two boats we fucked hehehe 🙂

And……..that’s enough for today as my back is starting to hurt 😦

http://www.zen12.com if anyone is interested in meditation. All you have to do is listen for about 12 minutes a day at first, and they have binural beats. I have said this before, way back, but thought it was worth mentioning again 🙂

Even a confident and dare I say, sexy man like me gets paranoid now and then hehehe Especialy when your girl dosn’t respond in any way to texts for a monthish 🙂 haha

I wasn’t always this way, it took years of going inwards and meditation, which I had a lot of time to do because of my stroke. But now I feel confident saying these things 🙂

I had a feeling I was going to get banned for sharing that on FB earlier, but I did it anyway because I’m a rebel hehe 🙂

I drove my mum and John (step dad) around my sisters today because it was her oldest daughter, Rosa’s birthday tomorrow, so we went round for tea and eclairs, I had coffee because I don’t do milk. (except in India, I have chai)

My dad left us when I was 5, and moved to South Africa. He was the captain of a cargo ship 🙂 I can’t remember fuck all of my childhood, I think it’s because he left, so I blocked it out and then kept blocking it out after that 😦 He remarried to Kobe and I did visit him when I was 19 for a month.

My first proper girlfriend at 19, who I lived with in London, had a 2 year old called Mia, and that was the first time I went to Goa, for 2 weeks, with her and stayed in Anjuna, north Goa. We went to some Trance party in Bamboo forest and took some acid 🙂 I can’t remeber much else. We did hang out with Govinda and rented a scooter off him. He had known Tosh for years as she had spent a lot of time there growing up as her mum was a hippie.

Tosh was 18 I think when we went there. Her real name is Amber but they used to call her Tosh, some Sanyasie thing. (Idon’t know if I spelt that right) It’s an Indian thing I think. Some hippie thing, maybe…..

I just got banned from Fakebook again for 30 days 🙂 hehe for sharing, Former Pfizer warns booster shot is an exterination weapon to mass murder human beings hehehe you can still see it in my story though hahaha 🙂 the last story hehe

That link didn’t work for me, but I shared it on FB and Twatter hehe 🙂

Also I’m just about to watch the latest 45 years of extraterrestrial contact & Research with Bob Porter @ http://www.exopoliticstoday.org 🙂

It’s official, my girl is NOT a cold hearted bitch 🙂 hahaha she obviosly read my blog, (at least someone reads it) and hearted the Lenny Kravitz song hehehehe I think I love her even more now ❤

Now, back to bussiness, you should really check out todays X22 report, Ep 2895b Sometimes it takes transparacy to Force a nation, stage being set, U1 http://www.x22report.com. It goes over everything from Ukrane to elections and tells us what to expect in the coming weeks.

He goes over relevant Q posts, as always, and ties it all togeather 🙂

I think it’s important that we meet away from her house incase she dosen’t like me, then it won’t be quite as hard on me, or her 🙂

I fucking hope she likes me though haha 🙂 🙂 🙂

Update on the Indian visa situation, it’s still really fucking hard to get a visa 🙂 hahahaha

But there is someone called visa genie and I emailed them and asked if I could pay more to get it fast tracked so I can be there for my birthday next month, and they said they couldn’t get any visa’s at the moment, but will email me as soon as it starts up again, so I don’t know when I’m going to India yet 🙂

But if I can’t get there before my birthday it will be to cold to go up north to Kasa Devi, Almora, so I will proberly invite my girl to South Goa for about 10 days of magical mystery tour of South Goa,still perculating in my head at the moment 🙂

And again, if she still thinks I’m boyfriend material she can take me home to meet the family. Now, there is a small chance she IS a cold hearted bitch, in which case I won’t be going with her hahaha

Of course I will pay for the flights to get to South Goa when she gets there 🙂