19.18

I was just rereading some of my past blog and didn’t realise back thenhow much your thought’s will change your life wowowow 😉

14.16

I realized after I turned the computer off last time that I was completly knaked hehehe I thought my girl might get a giggle out of that…….

I forgot to say that when I go on my morning walks I start off by surrounding myself with an impenerutble bright white light, and the world, so nothing can get to me. I’ve just started saying, “except @£$%^,” not going to say her name, but my better half, hehe

01.35

Back again. COuldn’t sleep….. So Im just writing my adventures and thought’s and I’ve been “thinkin boat ma baby” as the old song goes, so thought I would come on here and tell both of you hehe I don’t think she will mind and it’s a bit late now after what I wrote before…….hehehehehehe

I’m giving up smoking weed because I want to be the best version of me when I’m around her and I can’t do that if I’m stoned all the time. I will have a smoke if she ever has a smoke, if we want to be a bit silly sometimes, but only if she is. It helped me to keep sain in these uncertain times and I do like a spliff every now and then, but I’m moving to a different phase in my life and helping others not as fortunate as me.

I’m smoking the last of it now, and enjoying it but also enjoing the prospect of not smoking. I’ve got a day left, maybe two, so I will enjoy 😉

I’ve always found it easy to give up smoking so it don’t matter to me.

I would like to rent a boat and take her to the Andaman islands for a week or two if possible. I want to do the islands in Thailand and maybe all the way down to Singapore in a boat. I have sooooo many ideas. I want to visit my mate Jase in Melbourne….. and take her anywhere she wants to go, and we can go on adventures everywhere. I’m not to bothered about the states. I wouldn’t mind going to the Eceti ranch in the US to see the flying saucers and strange lights coming in an out of the mountain there. And apparently it has amazing energy there. I could be talked in to going to Mexico and Peru to see all that old stuff while I was there, as I wouldn’t see myself going back. Maybe we could go to Hawai while we’re in that neck of the woods.

Hopefully we will have the rest of our lives to do it all and helping people along the way, spreading our love and abudance, and sprinkling a little bit of magic everywhere we go……..

Yea…….I really like that idea…..

And on that note, it’s 02.11 here so time for bed. Nyt

00.58

Here i am again, can’t sleep, really stoned…….. and I felt the urge to get up and type, so here I am. I got some morrocan hash a few day’s ago and started putting it in my vape, had a bit after my coffee and walk in the woods, felt quite nice, had some later that day and in the evening.

Same next day, then bought some tabbaco today, and after half a dozen spliff, my mums birthday down wetherspoons, micro waved curry in my opinion but they enjoyed it with the gran kids, so that was the main thing 🙂 now…….. I think I I don’t want to smoke spliffs or anything, anymore. See, I gave up smoking ciggies, roll ups, about a month or two ago, and after smoking a few spliffs……I just don’t think I can do it anymore.

Maybe I’m growing out of it hehe or maybe my focus has changed…..

I don’t know but I feel it’s a good thing. I think it’s because I get out in nature everyday and get away from life for an hour a day that I’m thinking more about this stuff. Just putting my thoughts down as usual I guess.

hehe more ramblings of a stoned old man this time……

No more tho…….

22.16

I can’t tell you how to get intouch with spirit, God, universe, what ever you want to call it. You have to find you’re own unique way, I can tell you how I do it 🙂 First off, you have to have faith that everything is going to be ok, especily when you go through something like a stroke, like I did. That is where my faith started in ernest really, because I didn’t die, although I was close, but I was very poorly for years.

So I started with being thankful for stuff every night when I was in bed, just before going to sleep. I said thank you for my family, thank you for my friends, thank you for my perfect health, even though I was far from healthy, because you can say thank you for stuff you want to happen as well, and say it like you already have it. Thank you for my perfect chinese girlfriend, ( I wanted someone who wouldn’t cheat on me because when I had the stroke my girl at the time slept with my flat mate while I was in the hospital, which wasn’t very nice. And now I’m in love with an anglo indian, so that was pretty close to what I wanted, and I’m definatly not complaining due to the fact that I’m head over heels in love with her. hehe, I hope I don’t regret saying that later. hehe). Thank you for the money I have, thank you for the money I spend. And more recently, a couple of years ago, thank you for being here at this amazing time in history, thank you for rescuing all the children and keeping the rescuers safe, thank you for zim, thank you for the trillions of dollars for humanity ( you have to reach for the stars with this stuff, why not. hehehe) thank you for protecting Trump and his family (because without him there would be no Global Currecy Reset and revaluation backed by gold. We would of had the great reset where you own nothing and be happy according to Claus swabb and the econmic forum) thank you for protecting all the white hat’s and there family’s, thank you for taking out the deep state, pedo, illuminati, ( I lumped it all togeather because most of them are pedo’s and it’s all the same thing), thank you for the QFS, QVS and QES, ( I said that bit a few days ago I think) and thank you for GESARA, Global Econmic Securities And Reformation Act. God bless you all, have a beautiful day, aloha. ( I knicked the last bit off santa surfing who used to do a show on youtube before she got banned for speaking the truth, along with many others, about a year or so ago). I recently found her on Telegram, the only place left that you can have free speech and is not owned by the Cabal, Deep state, Illuminati, what ever you want to call them, it’s all the same thing. hehe

And now, all these years later I’m nearly fit and healthy, I’m nearly super wealthy, I’m nearly going to have (hopefully trillions of dollars for humanity) and I’m close to having my perfect girlfriend, so you can’t get much better than that 🙂

I say all these things to this day, and when I have all those things I will adjust it to fit my life then and keep having faith that I will get what I ask for.

I hope that helps one or two of you out there, if anyone apart from my new girl even read’s the ramblings of an old man hehehe

Well that’s enough ramblings for one night. It’s 23.16 here now so I’m going to bed.

14.42

The only girl prettier than the Russian girl is the girl I’m in love with now, and she really gets me as well. Everytime I think I’ve gone to far she messages me back with even better news than it was before, which is amazing if you ask me. I’m so in love right now and I should proberly stop gushing about it on here. hehehehe

When the GCR happens I will have to sign an NDA, Non Disclosure Agreement, and I don’t how long it will last until I get to my appointment, so don’t worry if I don’t update my blog for a while (nothing new for me hehe)

I just worked out how to read the first bit with kelly etc very funny hehe

I didn’t sleep with the russian girl by the way.

Well now it’s 0200 in the morning so hopefully I can sleep now, my eyes feel tired now thank god.I did get a meditation app a round the time I was living in Iilfracombe called http://www.zen12.com which really helped. It was a years worth of meditations with binurel beats which went up a level every month until you got to the highest level. My sister got it recently because she had a burn out earlier last year from working to much so now she only works 9-5 (I hope)

Goodnight

00.52

I can’t sleep again because I’m so fucking excited so here I am again. hehe. What are you exited about? I hear you ask…… could it be that we are close to the RV in my opinion so it’s close to me getting in a medbed and finaly being healed after almost 11 years this march? You would think so, and maybe that’s part of it, but I have been saying thank you for my perfect health for about 10 years now so it’s drumed in to my subconsious.

No, I’m sooooo fucking excited because soon after me being healed, about a month to six weeks, I will be seeing my new love, if she still likes me by then, hehe, and spending quality time with her.

We will go on many adventures and have lots of kissing and sex hehe.

I hope…….

What else can I say now that my thoughts have got me out of bed and turned my computer back on? I only turned it off half an hour ago haha

On my walk in the woods the other day, Cann woods, I met a man who walks a dog most days from the woodside cat and dogs home, he walks a dog there all the time and he never knows which dog he’s going to get. That day he had Maximus, a tiny and very friendly dog which I thought was quite funny because of his name hehe

A girl from my house walks dogs up there every day as well. They have a whole bunch of people who do it every day and I see them often. The girl above me says that the girl who walks the dogs is a smak head, but I don’t know if that’s true or not, but she is really skinny and she only ever talks to me if she has to when she’s walking dogs so…. hehe

After you’ve had a stroke it goes one of two ways I think. You either get really pissed off with everthing or you just find it funny and laugh at yourself if your struggling to do stuff, which is all the time. Can anyone guess how I react? hehe

07.12

I woke up at 6am this morning, which is really unsual and had a desire to write so here I am. Don’t know what I’m going to say so…….

I still really love psytrance and listen to shpongle a lot, especily when writing, which is chilled out psytrance. I think I was thinking the girl who inspired me to write again and couldn’t get back to sleep hehe

I just had to put shpongle on because when there’s lyrics i can’t concentrate on writing and my mind goes blank 😉

People like thinkyourselfhappy.org on Facebook about once a week, if that, but I have no idea if they read my blog or not but no one has given a donation for my course yet in about 7 years so…..haha I guess they don’t think someone who has had a stroke can write anything of significance. I’m not bothered either way, it helped me massively so I put it down on my computer and gave it to my sister, Peg, who writes for a living and she made the course really. It was just my ideas and expirience.

I have sooooo much to say but sometimes my mind just goes blank and I can’t think of nothing hehe

Maybe just lie on my bed and listen to shpongle for a while and wait and see if I get inspired somemore……

As soon as I lay down I got inspired hahaha I have my computer wired upto my 32″ TV and after 1 minute my pictures of a lot of my times in india come up, and some pictures of V festival in the uk where I worked for a couple of seasons putting up a sign for the NME tent, that’s all I had to do and it took 3 of us a few hours and then we had a backstage pass for the whole event. sweet deal huh?

But it’s mostly my times in india which is perfect inspiration to go back year after year.

I’ve just remered that the peson who inspired me told her friends to read my blog :-0 hehe I hope they forgive me….I can’t take it back now……

12.16

I don’t even know how to go back and read what I wrote hahahaha that’s how much of a technophobe I am.

Just been shopping and my daily coffee and walk in the woods but it was only a short one because it’s bloody cold wind today and I will be mosty spending it in bed watching movies on youtube.

Come on RV so I can get to Goa in the sun.

And get started with my humanitarian projects obviosly 😉

Ohhhh,I don’t think paypal is working anymore so you can’t donate anyway haha well no bothered anyway so I don’t think I’m going to worry about it hehe.

13.23

Hi, well the last thing that I wrote had the desired effect because she texted me and said I’m going to have wet dreams thinking about your blog 😉

Don’t worry, I’m coming soon but I find myself thinking of you a lot these last few days and it’s going to be a while before I can see you so don’t get pissed off if I don’t text you every day, although I may 🙂 hahaha but, like i said, it’s going to be a while and I don’t want to get obsessed with you hehe.

Anyway, I want to explain how my life has changed since my stroke, it will be 11 years in march.

I started eating almost only organic fruit and veg where ever possible because a pain killer gave me the stroke so I started to think more about what I put in my body. I started to use fluride free toothpaste and a water filter that takes the fluride out because fluride messes up your pineal gland and you can’t see through the bull shit that’s everywhere in society. I have never watched the news all my adult life because i know it’s all bs. They are just trying to get you to follow a narrative that has nothing to do with reality.

I am are very powerful words when using them for self help 😉

When I go for my woodland walk in the mornings I say “I am fit and healthy, I am super wealthy, I am enough, I am praying that we are safe to have the RV today, I am praying that we rescue all the children and keep the rescuers safe, thank you for the QFS, thank you for the QVS, thank you for the QES. Quantum finacial system, Quantum voting system, Quantum education system.

I am not healthy as I want to be because of my stroke, I not super wealthy, but I am enough hehehe

But when I started saying that 10 years ago I didn’t know about medbeds, I didn’t know how I would be wealthy and I didn’t think I was enough because of my stroke. But I told a girl in Germany who I had met in Goa ( I don’t ever really talk to her so I have no idea why I told her anything hehe bloody stroke) years before about an investment I had heard about where certain currency’s would be worth a lot of money when the Global currency reset happens. Zimbawe dollar, Iraci dinar and vietnamese dong, and then promptly forgot because of my stroke hehe but she didn’t forget me and about 1 year later she sent a zimbabwe 100 Trillion dollar note because apparently people who have some zim will be one of the first to use a medbed, after the children from the deep underground military bases DUMBS that have been used for pedophillia for decades, but that’s nearly cleaned up now thank god.

Also zim holders will have a choice of humanitarin projects to do, or they can choose there own. I want to plant trillons of trees, flying cars and a few other ideas.

According to Dutch Green Bussiness DGB there is about 3 trillion trees on the planet right now and there should be at least 6 so Trump has pledged 1 T so I want to pledge at least 2 T to get us back to where we should be, but maybe more, and DGB is located in Cornwal now at Camelot castle with John Mapin as the bussiness guy there. And it’s a hotel so I can stay there when I go to speak to him about it and go on some nice costal walks and find out some stuff about King Arther so that will be fun.

Ok, thats enough for now as my bum hurts hehehe

It’s getting bloody cold here so I hope the GCR is soon so I go to Goa and be in the sun until sumer returns 🙂

I’ve rested me arse now hehe………The point of the above dialologe is if you do the work on the inside and have faith that no matter what or how long it takes your dreams can and will come true. I say thank you every night before sleep as i’m going to sleep for about 15 things, including my perfect health, which isn’t here yet but i know it’s coming.

Also, after my stroke I learnt very quickly to not give a fuck what anybody thought of me and my physical disability’s because I would never leave the house again if I did. Now I drive an automatic car with a knob on the steering wheel and brake with my left foot because I haven’t got time to feel sorry for myself, I just adapt and over come because that’s the kind of guy I am and if you don’t like it you can do one hehehe

God, I’m on fire today hehe

Thanks again, you know who you are 🙂

What else can I say today? I think we are really close to the GCR and I can’t wait to start my humanitarian project’sand get out of this country for warmer climes.

I have a special love for India and have been there about 15 times now. I started with Goa when I was 20 with my girlfriend, Tosh, for 2 weeks and fell in love with the place. She had a one year old daughter but she left me for another man that was our friend but regeted it years later when she had moved to Brighton and I met up with her after my stroke hehe more fool you 😉

Then I split up with another girlfriend who lived in the woods near Portsmouth. I moved there after London when I got banned from driving for being over the limit, but it turned out I was under the limit and their machines were falty in Surrey, but I didn’t find that out until my one year ban was almost up haha.

At 25, moved to Brighton, got my hair dreaded and got a 5 grand bank lone and fucked off to Goa again for 6 months. I have been all the way to the tip of india on my own, to Kanyakamari, via kodai kanal and Kerala, went on some back water boat trips in Kerala. I have been on safari in north india looking for tigers but didn’t see any hehe, I’ve white water rafted down the Ganges twice on 2 different visits to Rishikesh, I went to Goa at least 2 times after my stroke, one time for 3 months in 2018 and once for 9 months where I did 3 months in Goa and met Major an older gent who had built a house near Almora, I can’t rember where right now but maybe it will come back to me. ( it just came back to me, Kasa Devi)I had been to Almora a few years before so i new it a bit. So I went there in March and stayed with a family there, Champa was the name of the woman and she had dreads down to her arse and 2 sons, Papu and I can’t rember the other one but champa used to come down and cook my meals for me, all included in the price of Majors house. Champa died from a toxic mushroom a few years after I was there and I haven’t been back since, but I will visit them this year for sure

After a month or two I found somewhere in a village a few miles away that dealt with people who had a stroke so I moved in there for a fee and stayed there until my visa was up and then went to Nepal with Papu to renew my visa. I had been to Nepal years earlier with Chris and Tajana on a visa run, I was just along for the ride an the adventure last time but it was my turn this time.

The last time I was there I was shagging a nepales/daramasala girl while we were there and on the last day we got really pissed and I fell down the stairs and knocked myself out and when I came to she had robbed me of all the money I had just takin out earlier that day and I never saw her again hehe

Luckerly an italian lady from Goa that I new was also there on a visa run and she spoke to Panta who owns Bhakti Kutir in Columb south Goa and he sent me some money to get home hahaha It’s quite mad remebering it all now……

When I got back from Goa in April 2018 they had stopped all my benefits and I was only on £300 a month for ages until it went to court and then they realized I wasn’t faking it so I got a load of money backdated so I used it for oxygen treatment in St Austel, Cornwal, which is about an hour and 20 minutes from my house. you have to go in a sealed room for an hour at a time and it’s like going underwater for an hour and you have an oxygen mask on for and hour and you just read a book for an hour. there’s about 5 or 6 chairs in there with oxygen masks and sometimes I did 2 sessions in one day with some lunch in between. after 10 session I had the maximum amount and only had to go back once a week after that, but lockdown started soon after so I only went back one or 2 times after the max but my memory, walking and pretty much everything improved after that. Especily acording to the people at the Dartmoor zoo where I had been volunteering for the last few years. It was for people with disability’s and PTSD and things like that.